Today’s Workout: 10 Minute Warm Up: 1.1 miles, Circuit Training 30 minutes, 30 Minutes of Cardio, Abs

After circuit training today, I tried to do the stationary bike and just could get stabilized on it, so I switched to walking and was pretty tired, so I was only able to push out 30 minutes in total. Something’s better than nothing!

While today’s workout was a pretty good one, I’m still frustrated with a lot of things: one of my biggest frustrations so far is that I’m not feeling sore… You might think I’m crazy for even WANTING to feel sore, but for me it’s a positive reinforcer that I did a good job. I feel like I’m lifting heavy enough weight. I’m doing 3 sets of 15 reps. I start off pretty smoothly and then by the second set I start to feel the muscle fatigue. I keep breathing and try to maintain good form so that I don’t strain any other muscles and I prevent other muscles from trying to compensate for the load. I do leg extensions and curls, a lot of shoulder work, bicep curls, hammer curls, tricep extensions and over head tricep extensions, and back work. I also follow with abdominal work: crunches, reverse crunches, medicine ball twists, and leg raises. And after ALL of this–I feel nothing…I feel the fatigue DURING, but I don’t feel it after.

What can I do to get that after workout burn? I wanna feel like I’m DOING some kinda of work ESPECIALLY since my shoulders, arms, and abdominals/love handles are ALL the areas I’m trying to tone, but the areas I don’t feel anything from even though I’m working on them. I’m DYING to get these areas toned up. While I’m VERY proud of all the weight I’ve lost, I still feel like when I see myself in photos-these are the areas I see most, and they still make me feel fatter than I am. I know that if my arms were WAY more toned, I’d look more like the size 12 that I am. Instead, I still feel like my upper body makes me look like the size 16 that I used to be. Friends say they think my arms have gotten slimmer, but I just don’t see it. While I was doing JM 30 Day Shred, I could actually see my biceeps coming in, but my arms still feel like they never got smaller.

From what I can measure, my arms are 15 inches in FAT. I’m ready for this double wave thing TO GO! And I’m tired of the love-handle hang over my jeans. I want to wake up in the morning, and have to resist laughing cause my abs hurt, or can’t lift my 6lbs cat up because my arms and shoulders hurt too much. How do I know that I’m doing a good job? When will I start seeing results? I know it’ll probably be about 2 months before I REALLY start seeing some noticeable changes because I DO have a lot of fat on these areas,  but since I can’t SEE the change, I need to be able to FEEL it. So, how do I keep myself going and stay motivated, if I’m not even feeling it either?

UGH!!! It’s just kinda of frustrating and aggravating.

Well, I was going to write more, but this is all I have for now. If I think of more later, I’ll update.